Monday, August 9, 2010
I've got a lot to do and its so hot! I say "I" because Joe is working a lot this week and when he's done working it will be time to pack up the u-haul and scaddaddle (sp) outta here. I'm pretty darn excited about it. I had a dream though that I moved to a new place. Joe wasn't with me. He couldn't be with me. I don't remember why entirely. I remember being halfway thankful I was woken up by the knock on my door because it wasn't a pleasant dream. I remember thinking "what if I hate Warrensburg?" when I woke up. I don't think I am going to hate it. I think spending the night somewhere else will be insanely weird but I think we'll get used to it pretty quickly. The last few days here are definately going to be bittersweet. The bitter part is saying goodbye to the place where we learned about Ella and the house/town we experienced her life in. At the same time, I'm looking forward to a new start. The couple that's been here with us has been having a super hard time finding a place to stay. Which, I feel bad for but procrastination never gets you anywhere good. Joe gets off work in 45 minutes. I will see him in about an hour and a half! I'm trying to get our house in some kind of manageable order, even with all the boxes scattered everywhere. I don't deal with mess well at all so having my place not really look like much of a home is hard but yet exciting. I just wish it looked neater. We are still having a hard time finding homes for our animals. I feel bad. I don't want them to end up in some shelter preferably. Anyone want a cat or a dog? what about 2 cats and a dog? their friendly! Joe and I aren't where we need to be financially. I know God will provide. He always does. Even sometimes at the last minute. One time money just 'showed up' in Joe's account when nobody else had access to it. I know he will provide. I wish it would be soon that he would let a place turn up for Amber and Daniel. Both Amber and I are expecting babies weeks apart from each other and its just tough when you're stressed out anyway let alone when you're each almost 6 months along. I'm not complaining about the pregnancy. I've loved almost every minute of it. Even when I feel miserable. I'm so thankful for that 'miserable' feeling because I know it may not last for the next 3 months and I know very well I may not have a baby after this one. Just because I got pregnant twice doesn't mean it will happen again. Joe and I want more than just the 2 girls we have but we understand that just because you plan for something and try to make it happen, doesn't mean it will. I really hope that made sense. It made sense in my head! is anyone reading this? I'm just curious.