tomorrow

is my last day for baby appointments. It seems sort of surreal. We go to my appointments tomorrow afternoon like normal. I have the one where they check my blood pressure and the doctor measures my belly and checks Claire's heartbeat. The next one we will go to is a little more 'in depth'. They will do a ultrasound and then a non stress test. I meet with the specialist to talk blood sugar talk and probably last minute "be prepared that...could happen since we are pulling her out early"

Things are going so well though that I don't think anything bad will happen. Well, I think I will feel better tomorrow to be quite honest. Joe has asked me in the last couple days "do you have that feeling you had with Ella that something is wrong?" I think I do but I don't. Maybe the reason I do is because its the sort of thing that once you've been burned..your more..cautious next time. I hope that made sense. I don't think that we won't bring her home..like I did with Ella. I remember thinking to myself "what will happen that we won't bring this baby home?" shortly before she was born.

Now, it seems like it could happen. It seems more feasible to me this time but it is still sort of unbelievable. Maybe I'm just so overwhelmed that we are FINALLY having a baby. I am less than 2 days away from delivering Claire and I've been having lots of different emotions. And lots of weird dreams in the past couple days in particular.  I don't know that I will be able to update my blog until after the baby is here after today..Joe and I plan to leave for Columbia as soon as his class is over. I will give details later though..you can count on it. I'd say look forward to something towards the end of the week when I feel not so..drugged up!