so last night at Bible study we discussed the 'cost of being a disciple' in Luke. The portion of Scripture we were discussing was talking about how you basically have to be willing to lay down everything to be a disciple of Christ. I think it was a hard lesson for us all to talk about. It was definately one of those lessons you want to close your ears to. I've been thinking about the lesson since we talked about it. To be willing to lay down everything in order to follow Christ is a REALLY hard thought but I don't think that if we couldn't do it, God wouldn't ask it. I think that he puts his spirit in those who are genuinely trying to follow Him so why is the thought of leaving all our earthly possessions (if He would ask us to) so hard?
Why is it so hard to put our relationship with Him in front of our spouses & children. We are to love our spouses and kids...I'm not denying that one bit. I am saying that we are to love God more because he first loved us and after all, he did give us our families. Knowing that should make it easier, but for me..its hard.
After my first baby died...of course it took awhile afterwards but eventually the words in the Bible weren't just words...that you'd read in a story book for instance they became REAL because this God who held the baby girl I held not that long before in my body had written this book for me! I want that feeling back so bad...Now, I just struggle with wondering if I am thinking wishfully that God is real...I am really trying to work on the word "commitment"
if any of you are married, you probably understand you probably aren't always 100% happy with your spouse all of the time but you made a commitment you must honor so you stay and work out your issues..i'm trying to do that..I need help and prayer..anyone out there in the cyber world understand what I'm saying?